Since this was Leap Year, and we had an extra day in the month, this challenge was to do something "extra" on the page. I used the rub-on hearts and the button as I have never used either one on my pages before.
WHEW...I made it thorough this challenge. It wasn't the challenge that I had a hard time with, it was the page I chose to scrap. I thought after a year I would have been able to do these pages without crying. But I realized I don't know if I could ever do these pages without crying. The emotions just come flooding out and my heart breaks knowing that our little girl is somewhere out there and we have no clue how she is doing. Let me explain what I mean since most of you don't know our background. We do foster care. This little girl, Jasmine, was in our home for 1 1/2 years. She had become our little girl. Her mom had not done her case plan and we were about to adopt her when her mom decided to start doing her case plan and eventually got Jasmine back. It was not right, she was happy here, she was healthy, she was safe and most of all she was adored. She had lived with us longer than she had lived with her own mother, yet none of that mattered and she went home. What kind of mother loves her child soooo much that she is willing to do nothing for 1 1/2 years and then all of a sudden she starts loving her again and wants her back??? It was so wrong and I truly feel they have destroyed this child's life. Her mother told us she would keep in contact with us, but it has been a year and we haven't heard one word from her. We miss her so much and just want to know that she is okay. My heart is breaking again doing these pages, but they are done. And the situation is done, I can not change it, unfortunately and so I must continue to press forward with my hope and faith in Christ that HE knew what was best for her and for us. But it doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt. I pray for her often and hope that the Lord is taking care of her since we can't. WE LOVE YOU JASMINE and miss you so much. God bless you everyday our sweet little girl.
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No matter what happens to Jasmine, she will always remember that she was loved. And you know that you loved her...that's what matters.
My child's father has been absent for his entire life (7 years) and I cannot understand it at all! But like you said, you cannot change it and our faith in Christ is what gets us through.
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